It felt superb when the children sms-ed to tell me their UPSR results.
Feel so appreciated that they would think of me when they get their results.
Meanwhile, my beloved brother is sitting for his SPM theses days.
Days ago, he suddenly sms-ed me, "sis, can u tel me tat SPM is nothing? At least, lie to me."
I get it. The pressure. I used to have it to. And I still, have it occasionally nowadays.
It's not that our parents pressure us too much but...it feels so bad to see their dissapointed faces.
And at those times, teachers would often make u feel tat if you don't do well in the coming exam, ur future is doomed!
Treat exams as a place for you to show off your knowledge! Well, besides d geo, maths, language n stuffs,examination let us learned a lot more, i.e. how to cope with pressure, how to "counsel" fren who seems like their world is ending soon, how to know the techniques of speed reading all of a sudden, how to say super sincere prayers, appreciate the emotional supports some would provide you, how regret is a big waste of time and as for my case, I would suddenly "achieve my full potential"! lolz. Suddenly realize tat I can finish 2 years' syllabus in days. Or a semester's in hours. Of course, I would often regret to not have started earlier and then set new resolutions the next semester. But...oh well, I have given up changing my last-min attitude, it's a syndrome many of us would get, so it's normal, I suppose. haha
Tat day Joshua said that my biggest fear is rejection. I felt that it's soooo true. That's exactly what's holding me back many times. Like my previous post, I have mentioned that I sometimes worry too much, care too much, think too much. All of a sudden, I saw a book in Lawrence's house last night -- Dare to face Rejection. What a coincident! Finished it in half an hour. Felt so much better. Changed a perspective. Failure and rejection is just like a toll we have to pay to achieve what we want. If life's going all smooth and easy, it means I am going downhill! So I shall embrace the differences in things from now on, face rejections/failures/setbacks/hatred/worries/fears with a whole new perspective! They are all opportunities for me to grow. Ahhh~ What a relieve. I love people and life again! Variety is the spice of life. Everyone goes through all those too. I shall not be paranoid or too obsessed with the negative feelings. Cared too much on all the wrong stuffs. Care about welfare of people more, rather than what they think or would assume. Silly me XP
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